Lost in sadness

1. I purposely hurt the people closet to me - to see them fight to win me back
2. I see myself shutting people out and I don't know why because I love them more than anything
3. Inside my true self is locked somewhere - screaming against my mind, I am truely unhappy. But I have an amazing life
4. ... I know I've let everyone down and that alone makes me hate myself. I just want them to be proud of me. I have it good , I just want to be happy again. I'm so lost.
5. I do not deserve my parents or my amazing boyfriend - I'm destroying them . But I can't stop

... Bonus;
I wish I had the balls to kill myself..

The part I hate? No one could ever tell- I'm beautiful, sixteen and amazing at faking smiles...
I don't want to fake them anymore

<3

Gender: female
Sexual Orientation: straight



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