Buddies don't get laid

* I so want to just throw myself into my ex's arms and say I will be his forever, but it's so much more complicated than that. 

* I realize I am grown and can make my own choices but I do take my parents' opinions into consideration. My ex has done some really hateful things to me but I forgive him and I love him very much but not sure my parents would be so quick to understand that.

* I am holding back from him some but trying to still let him know that I love him. I don't want to send mixed signals so I have made no promises to him.  I am well aware how much he loves me. Although he did mean things to me, I know he did it because he was hurt and he wanted me to feel how much I had hurt him. 

* What complicates the situation even more is the fact that I started dating someone else after I left him and even though I am no longer with that guy he still wants to be with me. I am so unsure of how to tell him that I don't want to be with him. He's a wonderful guy but just not the one for me. I have an awesome time when I am with him but it's more of a buddy type fun not a bf/gf fun. Because he has done nothing wrong I just don't want to hurt him. :(

* There are still lots of issues that I have with my ex that we are going to have to work on if we get back together but I think that we could do it. He has showed me more love since we have been apart than I have ever seen from anyone else. He has continued to hold on and I have never seen someone fight that strong for someone.  Now I know what love is and I never want to lose that again. 

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