Anxiety attacks

Me and my sisters got into it real bad last night.  She had said some hurtful things about me to my husband that wasn't called for. I swear i wanted to slap her so bad and kick her butt.  But then there's a part of me that feels bad for her.  We suffer from very bad cases of anxiety and depression.  She's scared to take her meds and she drinks too much.  I take mine and everyone feels that I think I'm better than them.  I don't but they get on my nerves always drinking cussing and looking dumb.  I am the baby sister and they treat me like shit and use me all the time.  I want to stay away from my sisters but then in my mind I feel like i am just being bipolar.  I believe in my heart I am not wrong they just want me down to their low level.  I just want to be happy for my kids and husband and for myself.

I have never drove on a highway before because of my anxiety I get so paralyzed with fear I want to throw up.  I hate myself for it but I am getting better.

I think my husband is going to leave me because of my anxiety.

I try to hide my disorder from my children because I am scared if they worry about me they will have it too.  In my head I know better than that but my anxiety makes me worry so much.

I have gotten so fat lately.  I blame it on my anxiety meds but I really believe I'm just eating too much.  I wanna lose weight but I don't think I can.

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