Finding love that lasts begins inside

1. My parents have been together 19 years and Im starting to wonder if ill ever meet someone to last.
2. My family fights nonstop so I either play video games or drive far away. Someday, I won't come back.
3. My sisters friend brought her cousin over once. Her name was kiresten, we had sex. Even though it was months ago.. just knowing that she's back in town made me jack off.. while my new gf was asleep.
4. I miss her.
5. My sister is constantly with new guys. I've slept with four girls. Most days, I hate myself.