Dad is wrong

1.) I was the one who posted about stealing pills, I almost took them all instead of selling them. I still don't know if I regret not doing it aor not.
2.) The one person to talk me out of doing it was the man I am most certainly in love with. Again, I've never seen or spoken to him face to face, but after he talked me out of taking my life, I know for sure that I am in love.
3.) I still think about how easy it would be to just get more pills, overdose and forget about everything, but right now I'm still trying to stay here for him.
4.) I wish my dad could be proud of me instead of always telling me how worthless I am..
5.) I don't know what I want anymore. My life is turning out to be nothing more than a huge joke. I just don't know...