Bun in the oven

*I'm a raging bulimic, I've binged and purged 3-4 times a day this week and I want to stop very badly.
*I'm pregnant. One month along, and terrified.
*Not knowing of my conceiving, I dropped 6 hits of doublestacked ecstacy. I know this has heavily damaged my baby. Upon realizing this, I leaned more toward having an abortion.
*My male cousins tried to get me to undress in front of them when I was a little girl.
*I've been deeply involved in a cult, roughly 5 years,and I have tattoos of symbols that don't really mean anything, and can't  be found on the internet or in a book.