Bareback brooding

1. I'm 20 and I have had sex with more guys than I can count on my hands and toes over the past two years and I don't plan to stop there. But the thing is, I hate condoms with a passion so I never ever use them because I can't conceive and while in the moment I don't think about getting an STD. But after the sex is over I spend all day thinking of ways I'm gonna die of AIDS.

2. Me and the guy I thought I was going to marry had a long distance relationship. He cheated on me through all stages of the relationship. We're broken up now and he's engaged to someone else. But when he comes in town we still sleep together and I don't feel guilty about it.

3. There's times that I lay in bed mentally examining every part of my body head to toe counting the things that I hate about myself physically.

4. I masterbate to girls getting doubled every night to fall asleep faster.

5. I have no long term goals in my life. I'm smart but I don't have the determination or patience to go to college and get a degree. My mom compares me to all her friends daughters that are in school and it honestly makes no difference to me what they do for themselves.

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