Admirable restraint

1) I'm still in luv wit my ex even tho I shudnt b he put his hands on me n I can never forgive him for that but not a day goes by witout me thinkin ab him or stalking him on facebook
2) I want a girlfriend(I'm a girl) but my family wudnt aprove
3) black men turn me on I'm white but I love black guys
4) I feel so alone lately I've been noticing that a lot of ppl r only ab themselves n dnt really give two fuks ab other ppl
5) I haven't had sex in 11 months cas i'm trying to wait for the right one but I'm very horny!!!