A wonderful life

* Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be good enough for my mother.  She is very religious and expects me to be as perfect as she is.
* Sometimes I wonder if I am a good mother to my son.  His father wants nothing to do with him and I have always been the one to take care of him.
* Sometimes I wonder if I should even be in a relationship.  I have had way too many.  When things get tough, I bail.  I get scared I guess.
* Sometimes I wonder if life would be easier if I were more of a bitch and didn't allow people to run over me so much.
* Sometimes I wonder if I should have stayed married to my ex husband.  I know we were totally different people, but the problems we had were so simple I could have worked with him to better the situation.  I think the reason I didn't is because I want to be free to be with whoever I want to be with and I am not one that cheats.  Maybe it's just commitment issues.