Hindsight is 20/20

1. I think that some part of me likes girls but I don't know/scared to explore it.
2.my current boyfriend is leaving me in less than 4 months and my world will be crushed cause I really love this kid.
3. I'm scared of my future and have no idea what I'm goin to do. I'm scared of failure and disappointing everyone around me.
4. I don't know my real self. I'm constantly changing and don't know where my place in the world is.
5. I'm not a virgin anymore and I hate it. I would do anything to get it back. I thought I loved him, in fact I know I loved him. I just know he isn't going to be the one I should have given it to. There are way better guys out there.