Enough to give anyone nightmares

*When I was 9 years old I was raped by my best friend's dad. I finally told my parents eight years later.

* I love pain. A want my partner to hurt me.

* Sometimes, I doubt there is such a thing as a man that just wants to hold a woman. All they want is sex,...they don't care. They don't love.

* I don't tell my parents, but I often wake up sweating and screaming. I have nightmares about my attacker, but they'd just think I'm crazy.

*Even though I enjoy it, nothing scares me more than sex.