Find art in every day

1. I really miss a girl who is now studying in france. She doesn't know that I fell for her, and my girlfriend doesnt know, too.
2. I want to break up with my girlfriend because of her selfish and troublesome. Just want to be free to rebuild my once peaceful life without her.
3. Sometimes I try to find fuck buddy to release stresses but never found one.
4. My two older brothers are heroin addicted, the older died, the other still addicted, it has been 16 years, sometimes I wished that he's dead... but I regret.
5. Theres a small barcode shaped scar on my left arm. I cut myself that time when I was in a very sad mood. Now I see it as an sudden act of art, not a bad memory. LoL