A disillusioned dreamer

1. I sometimes believe that my mother does not have any love for me.

2. I still think about commiting suicide even though I have told people I will never go back to the thoughts.

3. I sometimes wish I could be the bitch I am in my head in the world then maybe I might be liked more.

4. I have so many thoughts and little stories I make up about me getting to be with the guy I am falling for or getting to do things I really don't do just because I know none of it will ever happen.

5. My life is just becoming too much for me to handle.